Wednesday, November 05, 2008

A cruel twist

Yesterday was the hardest day of my life.

I had my scan and saw a beating heartbeat.

The ultrasound lady face turned grim.

It was ectopic pregnancy.

Doctor told me it can be life threatening and i need surgery immediately.

Was advise to remove my fallopian tube and risk the potential malfunctioning of my ovaries.

Decided against it and went to Gleneagles hospital for more scans to make sure its not a cruel joke.

After 4 scans at 4 different labs. I went in for surgery to remove the child i fought so hard for.

Managed to save my fallopian tube.

I went from joy, to delusion to hysterically sad, to numbness now over the past 24 hours.

My pregnancy is over.
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  1. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 13:32:00 GMT+8

    I am so sorry.

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  2. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 13:34:00 GMT+8

    oh, good Lord...i'm terribly sorry...i don't know what to say...

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  3. 黄婉娜Wednesday, 5 November 2008 at 13:51:00 GMT+8

    Dear Tintedsky,

    I am so sorry to hear what happened! Pls take good care of yourself. I am loss for words to say. Take care.

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  4. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 13:57:00 GMT+8

    i'm so sorry to hear about the bad news.
    Don't know wat to say. Why must things turn out this way?
    Cry out loud if you need to. Please take a good rest.

    Happyever

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  5. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 15:47:00 GMT+8

    i am so sorry to hear that.. please take care.. times will heal your pain... and think about your dear daughter ... you have her.
    I am not that lucky as you, still no baby after 10 years...

    WishABaby

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  6. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 15:57:00 GMT+8

    I am so sorry. It must have been very hard for you to make this decision. Please take care of yourself and cry out if u want. :(

    sunflower

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  7. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 16:10:00 GMT+8

    please take care..tintedsky
    I just had my ER yesterday and was told today none of my eggs were fertilized...
    I was thinking of you after this..and thought you were so brave and hopefully can follow your foot steps!

    please gather yourself together and dont give up!

    which hospital did you go to get your operation done?
    sue

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  8. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 16:10:00 GMT+8

    please take care..tintedsky
    I just had my ER yesterday and was told today none of my eggs were fertilized...
    I was thinking of you after this..and thought you were so brave and hopefully can follow your foot steps!

    please gather yourself together and dont give up!

    which hospital did you go to get your operation done?
    sue

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  9. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 16:10:00 GMT+8

    please take care..tintedsky
    I just had my ER yesterday and was told today none of my eggs were fertilized...
    I was thinking of you after this..and thought you were so brave and hopefully can follow your foot steps!

    please gather yourself together and dont give up!

    which hospital did you go to get your operation done?
    sue

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  10. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 16:10:00 GMT+8

    please take care..tintedsky
    I just had my ER yesterday and was told today none of my eggs were fertilized...
    I was thinking of you after this..and thought you were so brave and hopefully can follow your foot steps!

    please gather yourself together and dont give up!

    which hospital did you go to get your operation done?
    sue

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  11. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 17:18:00 GMT+8

    Dear tintedsky,
    hugz...
    cry out aloud if you need to. Yes, it is agonising. I am in loss of words. I am sure you will not give up. Your strong will will not be let down.
    I will pray hard for you.

    blisstan

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  12. I Believe in MiraclesWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 19:47:00 GMT+8

    oh no! I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. Sending you lots of BIG HUGS and prayers.
    **HUG**

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  13. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 19:49:00 GMT+8

    tintedsky - having an ectopic is one of the biggest blow that one can have.. I should know, I had 2 ectopics... My heart goes out to you..

    Mel

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  14. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 20:41:00 GMT+8

    Dear tintedsky

    so sorry to hear of your loss, do take care of your health. It's cold comfort but be thankful that the ectopic pregnancy was detected early and managed to save your fallopian tube and ovary function.

    mine was detected almost too late...and i had to have emergency surgery to save my life.

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  15. babydust81Wednesday, 5 November 2008 at 20:52:00 GMT+8

    tintedsky,

    I am so sorry to hear the news. I was hoping everything had went well. Pls take care. Rest well after the surgery.

    I know no words can make you feel better right now. BUt just remember that we are all here to support you in any way we can.

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  16. AnonymousWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 21:28:00 GMT+8

    Tintedsky, i (akachan here) am so sorry. My heart sunk as i read your post. Wish i can give you a big hug now. Pls take care of your health, do a mini confinement and recover so that you will be in good shape to try again soon. Grieve if you must but dont despair, dont give up ok? One of the forum gals ever told me, remember that when you are at your lowest point, there are no other way but up, up to better times! We will be here with you to jia you with you!

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  17. craftygalWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 22:33:00 GMT+8

    You alright? you can call me on chilip's no anytime... :(

    nvm carol.. u have natalie.

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  18. craftygalWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 22:52:00 GMT+8

    Pls take care of your health above all. When you have health and you are still young, there's alway hope.

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  19. craftygalWednesday, 5 November 2008 at 22:53:00 GMT+8

    hugs sis.. rem. u always have us, family. always here supporting u emotionally and in everyway ok.

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  20. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 00:31:00 GMT+8

    I am so sorry for you loss and for the torture that I know you must be going through. You're in my thoughts. (((hugs0))

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  21. G$Thursday, 6 November 2008 at 00:38:00 GMT+8

    My heart aches for you, I am so sorry. Take time to care for yourself - self preservation. You are in my thoughts.

    (I came over via L&F and am in the midst of recovering (recovering... more like existing) from an ectopic as well.)

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  22. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 00:57:00 GMT+8

    I am so sorry this happened to you. Know that there are lots of people who care, even though we're just blips on the internet. Thinking of you.

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  23. battynurseThursday, 6 November 2008 at 01:04:00 GMT+8

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.

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  24. DelennThursday, 6 November 2008 at 01:09:00 GMT+8

    I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  25. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 01:43:00 GMT+8

    You have my deepest of sympathies. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  26. BethThursday, 6 November 2008 at 02:00:00 GMT+8

    There are no words that will take the pain away, take the time you need, grieve how you need to grieve and know you are being lifted up in prayer right now!

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  27. HeidiThursday, 6 November 2008 at 02:38:00 GMT+8

    Much love and hugs. I'm so sorry.

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  28. CindyThursday, 6 November 2008 at 02:50:00 GMT+8

    My dear dear friend, I am so sorry to hear about the news. My prayers are with you. Good thing we are still young and time is on our side. Take care and nurse back your health quickly. Lots of HUGS!!!!!!!!!

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  29. JamieThursday, 6 November 2008 at 04:28:00 GMT+8

    I am so very sorry. I wish there was something I could say or do to ease your pain. Please know I am thinking of you.

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  30. Fiddle1Thursday, 6 November 2008 at 05:19:00 GMT+8

    I am so terribly sorry. How grossly unfair. I cannot tell you how sad and sorry I am.

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  31. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 05:32:00 GMT+8

    I am so terribly, terribly sorry.

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  32. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 08:28:00 GMT+8

    I hopped over from LAFCA, and wanted to leave a note that you'll be in my thoughts. This is a terribly cruel twist, and I am deeply sorry for your loss.

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  33. CaraThursday, 6 November 2008 at 08:44:00 GMT+8

    This is the worst news. My heart is breaking for you.

    ((hugs))

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  34. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 09:35:00 GMT+8

    I'm sorry. I had one last November and it was so hard. You will get through this.

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  35. DeniseThursday, 6 November 2008 at 10:29:00 GMT+8

    Oh, I'm so sorry this happened. Thinking of you.

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  36. PhotogrlThursday, 6 November 2008 at 10:37:00 GMT+8

    So, so sorry.

    Ectopic pregnancies are such are cruel joke.

    Big {{HUGS}}

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  37. NewtThursday, 6 November 2008 at 10:50:00 GMT+8

    I'm so very sorry.

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  38. Amanda HoytThursday, 6 November 2008 at 11:16:00 GMT+8

    I'm so sorry for your loss.
    Hugs and prayers,
    Amanda

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  39. AnonymousThursday, 6 November 2008 at 11:26:00 GMT+8

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs to you.

    Heidi

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  40. FattyPantsThursday, 6 November 2008 at 14:11:00 GMT+8

    I am sorry for your loss. Know that many people are thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

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  41. twondraThursday, 6 November 2008 at 20:32:00 GMT+8

    I am so sorry for your loss. Praying for you. (((HUGS)))

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