Be patient with life,
despite its cruelty.
Often it seems careless of our pain,
But just as often brings us hope again.
My unborn child is right now in heaven and one day I will come face to face and be reunited. Please forgive me for what i did.
I will continue, IVF #5 in feb 09'.
meanwhile, i am picking up the broken pieces..
finding strength in the comfort in well wishes.
the promise of life ended too soon...be sad, be angry...weep, and mourn...but do find healing under the wings of love from those who care and love...
ReplyDeleteyou are such a brave woman! and a great lady!!! I would like to have at least half of your courage and braveness...
ReplyDeleteI was my Dr today... he said cant tell what the reason was for the failure just that might be my AGE... haha kind of says.. there isnt much I can do...
Well the option from us is to do a cetrorelix protocol in January...
Sue
I meant to say.. option for us.. is cetrorelix protocol...
ReplyDeletesorry about that..
Jia you, dear.
ReplyDeleteYou will not be defeated, you will not collapse.
blisstan
I'm so very sorry. I hope that IVF #5 is a success. Until then, take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteOver from L&F. May peace be with you during this difficult time. Hope will be yours again. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteSo sorry things turned out this way, this time. Hope you can use this time to heal your hurt and make yourself ready for IVF #5. Praying for you (and your angel).
ReplyDeleteWhat makes a Mother
ReplyDeleteI thought of you and closed my eyes
and prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a mother
and I know I heard him say...
"A mother has a baby."
This we know is true.
But can you be a mother
when your baby's not with you?
"Yes, you can,"
He said with confidence in His voice.
"I give many women babies.
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
and others for a day.
Some I send to fill your womb
but there's no need to stay."
"I just don't understand this, God.
I want my baby here."
He took a breath and cleared His throat
and then I saw a tear.
"I wish that I could show you
what your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,
'We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh, so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
who had so much love for me.
I learned my lesson very quickly.
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh, so much
but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
on her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
"Mommy, don't be sad today.
I'm your baby and I'm here."
So, you see, my dear sweet one,
your child is okay.
Your baby is here in my home and
this is where she'll stay.
She'll wait for you with me
until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home,
She'll be at the gates for you.
So, now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not see
you're a mother with a child.
They'll be up here with me one day
and know you've always been one."
sorry for this long comment. I find comfort when i lose my baby at 11weeks. I hope you also find little comfort in this poem.
Please stay positive. Never give up.
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