Monday, April 29, 2013

Crossroads- Day 7 update of ivf #9

Lately, I have been feeling very emotional. I pray that this ivf will be a success and resulting in a healthy baby  9 months later. At this point of life, going through ivf is akin to being in a life crossroad. I really dont know what lies ahead. I can only close my eyes and pray hard.
Sometimes I feel so very alone in this. I have decided not to tell anyone except my husband and my housekeeper.  I am not telling my parents because I dont want them to have to worry for me. Its better this way.
Going through 5 straight failed cycles dampens my ability to believe that I can be lucky and good things can happen to me but still I have to believe in good outcome. I have to repeat this in my head.. 'success can happen to me'
Tomorrow I will be seeing my fertility dr for my first scan. I hope that my reproductive organ is responding well to the 100mg clomid daily and also the little puregon I am on. 

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